Name: holes
Duration: P00H03M31S
Description: (yes this is about bein trans but mostly its just about my emotions and how I've been feelin the past few months going between feeling incredibly sad and numb and feeling hopeful/happy that I'm not at rock bottom)

holes

from summer by en?

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(yes this is about bein trans but mostly its just about my emotions and how I've been feelin the past few months going between feeling incredibly sad and numb and feeling hopeful/happy that I'm not at rock bottom)

lyrics

Holes in my ears and holes in my nose
Waiting for a time when nobody knows
My old name
My old name
Bruises on my heart, I'll bandage the worst
Hoping my emotions aren't fit to burst
Into flame
Into flame

But I'll pick myself up again and I'll come swingin
oh I'll pick myself up again and I'll come swingin

And I'm happier now than I ever knew how to be
I built myself up from the ground and now I'm free
Of the way world expects me to be

Sun in my eyes and hope up ahead
Waiting for the time when I won't dread
Waking up
Waking up
All my fears will fill the years until
The windowsill
Isn't so tempting

But I'll pick myself up again and I'll come swingin
oh I'll pick myself up again and I'll come swingin

Well I'm happier now than I ever knew how to be
I built up from the ground and now I'm free
Of the way the world expects me to
Go along and accept all the
Shit it throws my way
Well I'll break the rules today
I don't want the world to know my old name

Holes in my heart that don't fill up
Pouring out myself for some sense of love
What a shame
What a shame
Heaviness inside that I never chose
Waitin for a time when nobody knows
My old name
My old name

Mmm
Mmmm
Mmm
mmmm

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from summer, released August 3, 2017

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en? North Carolina

22
he/they
old music archive, but maybe new music one day

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discography

summer

Aug 2017
halloween?

Oct 2016
Stranger things

Sep 2016
hello happy :^)

Jun 2016
under water tea party

Feb 2016
tfios

Dec 2015

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